Tea, anyone?

Today I've drunk lots of tea, eaten many biscuits, played cards and spent an excessive amount of time on the internet, just because I can now.

Katie and I also cleaned the house a bit, and figured out how to work the tumble dryer... so that's good.

Also tonight we watched 'V for Vendetta', which was very good, although it does mean that I will be going to sleep after 3am for the umpteenth night running, which is not very good.

But sacrifices have to be made, and the good news is that DUO is working for me once more.

xxx

P.S. I have noticed I have a tendency to overuse the word 'good', so apologies!

Yay for speedy internet!

After a day of wires and network connections, LAN settings, ISP addresses, and many more technical confusing things, Katie and I have finally managed to set up the internet in our house, wireless and hugely speedy!

It's sooo good... I'm on my bed right now, no wires... brilliant!

Anyway, that's it for now

Oh and welcome back to Durham all those who have returned now! x

Serial Killers and Sickness

Today I am not very well... what started out as just a cold has descended into either a 'very shitty' cold, or the flu. I'm all achey and ill and generally horrible.

So what better way to spend the day than reading about serial killers (my new book, it's very cool), playing Yahtzee and card games and reading gossip mags. Brilliant.

Now I'm going to email my mum and then I think we are watching a film. Bye, see some of you soon, x

Chinese, McSeriously good...

Well I had every intention of getting an early night last night, because I have been getting ill. That all fell to pieces, however...

First of all, I found out that the job that I had been given is no longer available, as they have 'frozen' all new employments or some such crap which basically means I HAVE NO JOB. Which seriously sucks. So, in that depressed light, we set off for Meghans for what was meant to be a bit of America's next top model, followed by early bed.

Twas not the case, however. After top model, Tom and Scott came over, joing Meghan, Liam, Katie and I... we had a few drinks, had a bit of a grey's anatomy marathon, played some yahtzee and ate some chinese takeaway. Great fun, but fun that didn't end 'till 5.30am, when I finally got to sleep. It was a very good night, though... so thanks to Meghan and Liam for the hospitality, and the Yahtzee!

Today Katie, Meghan, Liam and I went for lunch at dynasty for yet more chinese, but it was the perfect food for the afternoon after the night before. Yum. Then, Katie and I trawled shops for second hand books (of which I bought 3... for my course, of course!) and board games (I bought some dice, and Katie bought snakes and ladders). The rest of our day has been spent watching a film and playing Yahtzee (we tried Dominoes once, but they just didn't compete, so we reverted back to the faithful die).

All in all a good couple of days. Other than the no job thing. x

I am not

going to apologise for having a bad week. I'm sorry if my blogs have made people think that I think things that I don't, but I really don't. I'm sorry if people have been offended by anything I have written, or taken anything personally.

Maybe I should write a draft of my blog before I publish it, but I don't... I just write, and whatever I'm feeling at that moment will come out. So I'm sorry if I wrote things in a way that hurt people, it wasn't meant to be. This past week of blogs haven't been aimed at anyone or anything, I've felt a bit low, and I'm sorry about that... and I'm sick, and all, but I'm not holding back on anything or secretly holding hateful feelings towards anyone.

So please don't worry.

x

I have

come to the realisation that maybe it is better not to tell anyone anything, because that way you know that information won't be passed on. Also, its better not to ask anything, because then you don't get told things you don't want to hear. Though sometimes you can't stop someone from saying something. I don't know where I'm going with this. And I know that people will probably read things into this that they shouldn't, but that is the problem with saying anything.

I might become a mute.

Today is Saturday

and I am covered in ink.

Sometimes I feel like...

I'm slipping under and I just don't know how to stop myself.

I wish

There was a way that I could just make my head explode and then I wouldnt know akll the thgings i know, feel what i feel, think what i rthink

i would just be lost in oblivion

and ignorance would still be bliss

Job Searching and Sky

The past few days has consisted of...

Seeing Meghan who moved in on Sunday to her house on Mistletoe St.
Looking for jobs, applying for jobs, preparing for interview for job.
Watching family guy with Meghan and Scott at Scott's flat... and drinking maybe too much wine and gin... sorry guys if I was really incomprehensible.
Ironing.
Washing and cleaning.
Reading... though not for my course- I still don't have a reading list.
Watching Meghan's SKY T.V of which I am very jealous. I do, however, realise that if I were to have sky I would never get anything done what with watching all the 'Next Top Model' bitchiness, sitcom re-run comedy, films and other important things like... THE CRYSTAL MAZE. Which was a brilliant show.

Anyway. That's all folks, I'm gonna go fill out some application forms... xxx

Nothing...

It's funny... at home, despite the fact that I generally spent my days doing nothing, I always managed to find something to write in a blog, albeit probably meaningless, boring and a waste of all our time. Since coming up to Durham, still spending my days doing nothing, interspersed by the occasional job hunt, tesco trip, pub visit, or film viewing with Tom and Taj, I am finding it difficult to come up with anything to write about.

Having said that, I just wrote a whole paragraph on the fact that I have nothing to write. And now here, I have the beginnings of another paragraph on the fact that I wrote a paragraph on the fact I have nothing to write. I could go on. But I won't. Anyway, hope to talk to you all soon... I think I am missing human-human interaction (not, of course forgetting Taj and Tom...) or maybe I am just missing dear MSN.

I'll stop now, before I go too far. Love, xxx

More from Up North.

Still in Durham. What have I done the last few days?

Urm... cant remember when I last updated, buuuut... Kathy and Adam came to visit which was great, saw Oli yesterday briefly which was nice, went to the cinema with and stayed at Jo's house last night which was fun and did a trial shift at Persona today which was scary. I dont think Ill get the job, because lots of people applied, and a) I have no previous experience and b) my trial shift basically consisted of me doing nothing for three hours, because they were having a really dead day. Still, the girls there were very nice, the clothes very pretty... not to mention the shoes...

Hmmn.

That is all. For now. x

The One With The Brother And Sister

Not really copying Andy, have just watched a hell of a lot of Friends in the past week- like three series worth. I know. I know. This is why I'm hoping these jobs are going to come through. I put my application into Monsoon today... fingers double-triple crossed (ouch, but totally worth it).

Anyway, today (after a mishap with a cancelled train) Adam and Kathy, my brother and sister, arrived for a long weekend... yay! Having dropped off stuff at my house (yes- my house!) we went, with Taj, to Dynasty for a yummy chinese buffet, which was lovely. Then we walked around Durham a bit, came back... and here I am in Taj's house. He and Tom and Adam are engrossed in a geeky RPG gamey thing. Anyway- BOYS!

Tomorrow we are hoping to go to the metrocentre... which will be fun. So, for now... Byyyeee!! xxx

The Job Search

Still in Durham, still looking for jobs....

Although progress has been made on that front, in that I have actually applied to places... and plan to apply to more, and I have a CV (though not very impressive).

Biggest news is... MONSOON have a job going... this is a job I would kill for...

Seriously. I would. THINK of the staff discount. Anyway, I'm gonna go fill out the application form now, so byeee x

I am

back in Durham now.

Up, up and away...

Well here we are... tomorrow I head off on a train to Durham, with a ridiculously large amount of stuff, half of which I imagine I will never use. It's exciting- I can't wait to see the house, and daunting- living on my own for a month, and sad- saying goodbye to the family for who knows how long. Hopefully though, Adam and Kathy will be up to visit for the weekend, bringing with them... more stuff! That would be nice. Anyway, it's only a quickie 'cause I need my sleep (haha)... Just wanted to say byebye (and Hi to those of you newly returned) and etc etc. Don't know when I will be posting again... could be a couple days, a couple weeks, a couple months. Who knows... here's to the great unknown! May we embrace and relish it. xxx

Nightmare in Packingsville

Ok... I have about 35 hours until I am meant to be up and ready to head off to Durham. However, I am, as you may be aware, terrible at packing. Maybe worse than the me trying to choose an outfit kind of bad. No, nothing beats that. Anyway... yes, I am very bad. This is for two reasons. I begin the packing with the greatest of intentions... to pack light, and to pack neat. These, however, become my downfall. I get bored of folding, and indecisive as to what I really need. This means that my suitcase gets overstuffed, untidily, and full to burst with things I'll probably never need.

I am aware of this fault, but am helpless to do anything to stop it. It is just who I am. In this way I hate packing. On the other side of the coin, however, I quite enjoy it. I can turn the music up loud, let my mind wander as it's not a particularly engaging task, and get excited about where I am going.

This is the ambivalence of me.

x

Apologies

Sorry if i have come across in a very bad mood for the past few days. The truth is, I haven't been in a bad mood.. more of an emotional rollercoaster from content, to annoyed, to angry, to excited, to worried, to upset, to asleep. So... it's not really been a representational view. But nevermind. I haven't properly blogged for a while but I a) can't remember enough to and b) can't be bothered enough to go through my daily excitements (of which, I'm sure you can imagine, there are many... not).

On Tuesday of last week (as I blogged... I think)... we were planning to go down to Polzeath beach in Cornwall for the day (it's about an hour from here)... we being me, my mum, Adam, Kathy and Oscar, Diana (a friend of the family), Zander (her 15yr old son) and Nick (Adam's friend). However, fate was not on our side... or at least BMW weren't, and Diana's car broke down on the way. So we (after sitting on the roadside for 3 hours waiting for Mr. AA) turned round and spent the day at home instead. So our trip to Cornwall happened the following day, and despite being very windy it was a brilliant day, lots of fun in the sun and the sand and the sea... from the sand castles, to the fish and chips, to the bodyboarding to the pub meal in the evening, all very nice.

The next day I had an old friend from school, Steph, come over and we had a great time catching up on life, and realising how many people we had forgotten about!

What else has happened...
Yesterday... or the day before, I forget.. Diana and Zander went home, and Oscar was picked up by his father, to go on holiday for the next three weeks. The house seems very quiet now, but it is bliss. I have revelled in the peace, and consequently, have watched about NINE films since he left. OH DEAR. BUT BUT BUT it was a good thing as I rediscovered films that I love (such as Blow, which is Johnny Depp as a drug dealer... but really rather sad story) and discovered new films (such as The Notebook, which was brilliant... really liked it). Good all round.

Now my MOST exciting news is that I will be in Durham on Thursday- for the foreseeable future! Yay! Hopefully that entails me settling in to Crossview, and getting a job, and generally being organised.

This has been a long post, so I will leave you all now, with a final note of appreciation... to the wonderfulness that is.... fluffy socks. They are so satisfying. :) x

Grr

People can be so fucking awful.

Sometimes I really hate them.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH

Sometimes I really hate people. I'm sorry... I know that sounds bad, but they can really annoy me. I'm sure that I annoy people too, so don't feel too bad, but really! Argh! Sometimes it just pisses me off.

Grrrrrr.

And whoever keeps putting random Anonymous comments on my old blogs saying 'check out this link' etc could they stop it. Thankyou.

That is all.