Haven't posted for a while... don't know why, I've had time, and probably things to say, I just haven't felt like it. Anyway, I'm posting now... how are you all?
I can't be bothered to write down the ins and outs of the last few days to you all... suffice to say there is lots of family stuff going on at the moment, and I am spending a lot of time thinking about things.
Durham seems a million miles away now. Like I never was there, like I'll never return.
Anyway, I'll probably post more tomorrow, love etc xxx
Monday, July 10, 2006
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Ma famille
My family. An odd bunch, but I love 'em.
Today is my Dad's 50th birthday. Goodness knows how he has made it to 50, but he has, and I am thankful. Anyway, so, on account of it being his birthday, and just because it is something that we really should do more often, we phoned him. I haven't spoken to him since christmas, which makes me feel really bad.. because I am lucky that he is alive, and so I feel I should strive more to get to know him. The thing is, I am selfish, in that the awkwardness and the enormity of it all scare me. So I don't. Which is really bad. Therefore, I resolve to get over this and (Tim will like this) do more often 'one thing that scares' me.
Also today, I went along to Oscar's sports day. It was really sweet to see all these little kids working together in teams to complete each task (rather than traditional high jump etc they had team orientated things, and did things together...), the older ones taking charge, and looking after the younger ones. It was so good to see (and now I'm going to sound old) youthful innocence and eagerness and simplicity. It is nice to think back to that time when we were young, and although we didn't appreciate it at the time, life was so much less complicated, and we weren't made cynical by the world around us, or by experience.
Having said that, we must all grow up... we must all leave behind the relative cocoon that is childhood and embrace the freedom and the responsibility that comes with adulthood. I just think that sometimes, we should remember childhood... be thankful for how far we have come, thankful for the time we have left, for the opportunities that have arisen, and will continue to do so, and for the lessons we have learnt.
There you go... I guess you could say that the oldest male and the youngest male in my family have both taught me lessons today, and given me something to think about. Which is good, because I like to think.
Love you all, xxx
Today is my Dad's 50th birthday. Goodness knows how he has made it to 50, but he has, and I am thankful. Anyway, so, on account of it being his birthday, and just because it is something that we really should do more often, we phoned him. I haven't spoken to him since christmas, which makes me feel really bad.. because I am lucky that he is alive, and so I feel I should strive more to get to know him. The thing is, I am selfish, in that the awkwardness and the enormity of it all scare me. So I don't. Which is really bad. Therefore, I resolve to get over this and (Tim will like this) do more often 'one thing that scares' me.
Also today, I went along to Oscar's sports day. It was really sweet to see all these little kids working together in teams to complete each task (rather than traditional high jump etc they had team orientated things, and did things together...), the older ones taking charge, and looking after the younger ones. It was so good to see (and now I'm going to sound old) youthful innocence and eagerness and simplicity. It is nice to think back to that time when we were young, and although we didn't appreciate it at the time, life was so much less complicated, and we weren't made cynical by the world around us, or by experience.
Having said that, we must all grow up... we must all leave behind the relative cocoon that is childhood and embrace the freedom and the responsibility that comes with adulthood. I just think that sometimes, we should remember childhood... be thankful for how far we have come, thankful for the time we have left, for the opportunities that have arisen, and will continue to do so, and for the lessons we have learnt.
There you go... I guess you could say that the oldest male and the youngest male in my family have both taught me lessons today, and given me something to think about. Which is good, because I like to think.
Love you all, xxx
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
4th July
Today is independence day in the U.S.
What does independence mean... not on a country, governmental scale.. but a personal scale... to the individual.
On the one hand I suppose it means the freedom to choose, taking control of your own life and being responsible for making decisions. The dictionary definition is 'freedom from control or influence of another or others '.
I guess what it really means is that you start having to be fully accountable for your actions, your behaviour. You are responsible for yourself, and for the things you do. There is no point laying blame upon someone else, because ultimately you are your own judge and jury.
Therefore, I apologise. I am very sorry.
What does independence mean... not on a country, governmental scale.. but a personal scale... to the individual.
On the one hand I suppose it means the freedom to choose, taking control of your own life and being responsible for making decisions. The dictionary definition is 'freedom from control or influence of another or others '.
I guess what it really means is that you start having to be fully accountable for your actions, your behaviour. You are responsible for yourself, and for the things you do. There is no point laying blame upon someone else, because ultimately you are your own judge and jury.
Therefore, I apologise. I am very sorry.
Sunday, July 02, 2006
Thoughts etc
It is days like today that help me believe in the presence of a 'higher power', an 'eternal lifeforce'... in God. I started the day at 5am watching nature's brute force in a fierce and explosive thunderstorm. With each blinding flash of lightning, and each deafening roar of thunder, I was reminded of my insignificance, my mortality... and the extraordinary power of the earth, the weather and all these other things over which we have no control.
Another thing today has been the strength and incredible bond that a family can share in the face of adversity... whether that be finding something to smile about, together, in the face of devestation, poverty or tragedy... or on a simpler scale, such as today. My Granny, who is not well or strong, has made a difficult and heart-rending journey from the house she has lived in for the past 39 years, to a home nearer to us, down in Torquay (50 mins away). I cannot even begin to imagine the pain she is feeling (leaving behind so many of her posessions, memories... and her last link to her husband, my grandfather). All that I can do is my very best to be there for her, for my mum and my Aunt, as they work to make this transition as smooth as is possible. Today I watched as my family rallied round, helped one another and generally stuck together- through, and despite, all the minor grievances and annoyances we can only expect with a family of an age range from 6 to 84. I love my family... and hope that I will always be there for them when they need me.
Thirdly, today I have spent quite a good deal of my time outside, 'with nature' if you like, just listening to its sounds, and observing its obscurities. I really feel in awe of the intricate workings of life. I feel connected to it all too... through my very being alive, living upon this planet, breathing the same air as, and affecting, in my own way, everything. I am... just through being here, either as observer or through action... part of it; past, present and future.
It is astounding, and I love it. And I am thankfull for it all.
Love, xxx
P.S. Sorry to make you read all that ramble... feel free to hit me... I probably don't even make any sense... was just feeling pondersome.
Another thing today has been the strength and incredible bond that a family can share in the face of adversity... whether that be finding something to smile about, together, in the face of devestation, poverty or tragedy... or on a simpler scale, such as today. My Granny, who is not well or strong, has made a difficult and heart-rending journey from the house she has lived in for the past 39 years, to a home nearer to us, down in Torquay (50 mins away). I cannot even begin to imagine the pain she is feeling (leaving behind so many of her posessions, memories... and her last link to her husband, my grandfather). All that I can do is my very best to be there for her, for my mum and my Aunt, as they work to make this transition as smooth as is possible. Today I watched as my family rallied round, helped one another and generally stuck together- through, and despite, all the minor grievances and annoyances we can only expect with a family of an age range from 6 to 84. I love my family... and hope that I will always be there for them when they need me.
Thirdly, today I have spent quite a good deal of my time outside, 'with nature' if you like, just listening to its sounds, and observing its obscurities. I really feel in awe of the intricate workings of life. I feel connected to it all too... through my very being alive, living upon this planet, breathing the same air as, and affecting, in my own way, everything. I am... just through being here, either as observer or through action... part of it; past, present and future.
It is astounding, and I love it. And I am thankfull for it all.
Love, xxx
P.S. Sorry to make you read all that ramble... feel free to hit me... I probably don't even make any sense... was just feeling pondersome.
Friday, June 30, 2006
Scary watermen, sunshine and stuff...
Hello! Today has been another busy day. There was another (painful) 7am start, followed by more house tidying, more clothes washing and more job searching.
About halfway through the day I had a bit of a scary encounter with some (as dubbed by Tim) 'very rubbish watermen'. I heard some bustling about outside the back of the house, and went through to the back door to find two, scruffy looking men there, with the outside tap running. Needless to say, I asked who they were, and one of them said 'I'm Jamie'. As if that would explain everything. After a bit of banter, he finally said the he was from the waterboard, come to check our water supply. Then he said 'But we don't have any I.D. Maybe we are really gypsies come to keep you occupied at the door whilst we rob you.' Needless to say I was a little scared. But, they insisted, regardless of their lack of identification, and lack of a van (or from what I could see any form of transport), that they were from the waterboard. This kind of made sense, as our water has been off for the last few days during the day. But still odd. Particularly when one of them asked me if I wanted to buy some lucky heather off him. As well as the fact that they had just turned up in my back garden. Anyway... they left, and after a brief chat with my nearest neighbour, and with Tim, I decided that these men had not been scary or any sort of a threat. Just really 'very rubbish watermen'.
What else happened today? Nothing really of huge interest... I have been very mumsy today, looking after Oscar and cooking suppers and stuff. Quite fun really.
Anyway, love to all, and I guess just remember not to take things, situations or people at face value. xxx
About halfway through the day I had a bit of a scary encounter with some (as dubbed by Tim) 'very rubbish watermen'. I heard some bustling about outside the back of the house, and went through to the back door to find two, scruffy looking men there, with the outside tap running. Needless to say, I asked who they were, and one of them said 'I'm Jamie'. As if that would explain everything. After a bit of banter, he finally said the he was from the waterboard, come to check our water supply. Then he said 'But we don't have any I.D. Maybe we are really gypsies come to keep you occupied at the door whilst we rob you.' Needless to say I was a little scared. But, they insisted, regardless of their lack of identification, and lack of a van (or from what I could see any form of transport), that they were from the waterboard. This kind of made sense, as our water has been off for the last few days during the day. But still odd. Particularly when one of them asked me if I wanted to buy some lucky heather off him. As well as the fact that they had just turned up in my back garden. Anyway... they left, and after a brief chat with my nearest neighbour, and with Tim, I decided that these men had not been scary or any sort of a threat. Just really 'very rubbish watermen'.
What else happened today? Nothing really of huge interest... I have been very mumsy today, looking after Oscar and cooking suppers and stuff. Quite fun really.
Anyway, love to all, and I guess just remember not to take things, situations or people at face value. xxx
Thursday, June 29, 2006
ARGH! I forgot the title. This will have to suffice!
Today has been an even busier day... it began at 7am, which was not pleasant... with me having to get the boys (Adam and Oscar) up and ready for school... trust me, trying to activate a teenage boy and a sleepy six year old when you yourself want to crawl into a corner and snore away into eternity is not fun (Note: I do not actually, to my knowledge, snore... I was simply using at a plot device to jazz up the sentence). Anyway. This done, I pottered round the house, fed the dogs, cleared and cleaned dishes and dishwashers, put clothes in the wash, made beds, re-arranged a room, watered plants, walked dogs, checked ponies, watched wimbledon, watched film... by which time Adam arrived home from school and we continued re-arranging Oscar's and my bedroom.. which involved taking hundreds of books of a bookshelf, moving the shelf, then replacing the books. Then Oscar got home, and I cooked supper for him, and fed him. Then I cooked for Adam and myself, and ate (the supper, unsurprisingly). Then Kathy arrived home from College for the holidays. So I cooked supper for her. Then I watched some of the Andy Murray wimbledon match, whilst getting Oscar into his pyjamas. Then I put Oscar to bed. Then I watched more wimbledon. Then I came online, and here we are. Phew. Exhausting!
Ooooh... I also got my exam results today... Wooooo! 63% average. I am very pleased. Particularly at not having to do resits! Yay!
What else happened today... Oh yes. I turned into a mint. Courtesy of toothpaste, mint-scented shampoo and some scary little green men (which may or may not have been in my imagination) I am now a bonafide, glorified and petrified mint. Not a Polo though, far too traumatic.
I think that is all. Love etc, xxx (which, by the way, as expressed by some of my friends, is not my way of telling you all I've gone into the porn industry, okay! They are just kisses!)
P.S. Also today made more progression with 'Pigeons for scarves' campaign, with the President of the group sending a letter to the LTA with regards to their reckless treatment of the pigeons at Wimbledon, namely Michael and Archibald. Hear, hear! Coo, Coo!
Ooooh... I also got my exam results today... Wooooo! 63% average. I am very pleased. Particularly at not having to do resits! Yay!
What else happened today... Oh yes. I turned into a mint. Courtesy of toothpaste, mint-scented shampoo and some scary little green men (which may or may not have been in my imagination) I am now a bonafide, glorified and petrified mint. Not a Polo though, far too traumatic.
I think that is all. Love etc, xxx (which, by the way, as expressed by some of my friends, is not my way of telling you all I've gone into the porn industry, okay! They are just kisses!)
P.S. Also today made more progression with 'Pigeons for scarves' campaign, with the President of the group sending a letter to the LTA with regards to their reckless treatment of the pigeons at Wimbledon, namely Michael and Archibald. Hear, hear! Coo, Coo!
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Hello, hello, hello
Hello world.
Today has been, although with a lazy, yet lovely, 12 o'clock start, busy and bustling. Once up, I spent time tidying my room, tidying the house, talking to my mum about her career, looking online with a view to beginning my career (that sounds so high and mighty, when really I've been scouring the internet for whatever measly job and pay I can find!) , phoning people, cooking supper (sorry- Tea!), putting Oscar to bed, watching a film with Adam and walking the dogs. Oh, and watching Wimbledon of course, and doing more sudoku/crosswords.
Now I put it all down, it seems minimal and not very exciting, but it has been a busy day! I expect the next couple of days to be even busier, as my day begins at 7am... getting my brothers ready for school, seeing them off, tidying the house, cooking, cleaning etc, etc.
I'm quite enjoying being so busy though... I have been finding empty days a bit tiring! Odd, I know, but oh well!
Anyway, I'll leave you now, love and all... xxx
Today has been, although with a lazy, yet lovely, 12 o'clock start, busy and bustling. Once up, I spent time tidying my room, tidying the house, talking to my mum about her career, looking online with a view to beginning my career (that sounds so high and mighty, when really I've been scouring the internet for whatever measly job and pay I can find!) , phoning people, cooking supper (sorry- Tea!), putting Oscar to bed, watching a film with Adam and walking the dogs. Oh, and watching Wimbledon of course, and doing more sudoku/crosswords.
Now I put it all down, it seems minimal and not very exciting, but it has been a busy day! I expect the next couple of days to be even busier, as my day begins at 7am... getting my brothers ready for school, seeing them off, tidying the house, cooking, cleaning etc, etc.
I'm quite enjoying being so busy though... I have been finding empty days a bit tiring! Odd, I know, but oh well!
Anyway, I'll leave you now, love and all... xxx
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Wimbledon etc.
Helloooo
Today has been beautifully lazy. I had my first lie-in of the holiday, not waking up until 12, and then lounging around till' 3 reading and talking to people online etc. Good fun, good fun. When I eventually got dressed, I watched Henman play in Wimbledon on telly, whilst doing some crosswords and a sudoku. What a wonderful life, and all that jazz. After this, I sorted out my (and Oscar's) room a bit, washed dishes and clothes and was generally house-wifey. This afternoon, once Oscar and Adam had returned from school, I watched Wimbledon some more (Andy Murray...), did a wordsearch with Oscar, cooked supper (steak and roasted veg. couscous) and put Oscar to bed. He is reading (well, being read) Enid Blyton at the moment... which is fab! Takes me back a bit... and makes me feel very old. Perhaps because I am old.
Anyway, I feel that this post has been really badly written, and I do apologise, but I am having to do it quickly as my battery is about to run out on the laptop. Therefore, I shall bid you adieu...
Byee xxx
Today has been beautifully lazy. I had my first lie-in of the holiday, not waking up until 12, and then lounging around till' 3 reading and talking to people online etc. Good fun, good fun. When I eventually got dressed, I watched Henman play in Wimbledon on telly, whilst doing some crosswords and a sudoku. What a wonderful life, and all that jazz. After this, I sorted out my (and Oscar's) room a bit, washed dishes and clothes and was generally house-wifey. This afternoon, once Oscar and Adam had returned from school, I watched Wimbledon some more (Andy Murray...), did a wordsearch with Oscar, cooked supper (steak and roasted veg. couscous) and put Oscar to bed. He is reading (well, being read) Enid Blyton at the moment... which is fab! Takes me back a bit... and makes me feel very old. Perhaps because I am old.
Anyway, I feel that this post has been really badly written, and I do apologise, but I am having to do it quickly as my battery is about to run out on the laptop. Therefore, I shall bid you adieu...
Byee xxx
Monday, June 26, 2006
Monday brings the rain
Today it has been raining. Lots and lots and lots. Whatever delusions I had about 'sunny, sunny Devon' are well and truly shot down. But oh well... hopefully the sun will return sometime soon. Preferably before I go back to Durham.
Today I have been out of the house and down in Torquay/Totnes looking round old people's homes with my mum, aunt and uncle for my Grandma. It was sad, thinking about the fact that she will have to leave her house of 40 years, and a town she has lived in for even longer. But, there is no-one near her anymore to visit regularly, and there is no way she can look after herself. So this is the best option, and the home we decided on is really lovely. Kind of feels like a pensioner Thid Floor... with a huge common room, and slightly better food! And a cat called 'the boss'. Hmmn, anyway. That's what I did with my day. We also stopped for a very nice pub lunch which was very good. Yum yum.
Also on the note of food, I just munched my way through a packet of skittles and a snickers. Oh dear oh dear. Oh well...
Now I am off to make a cup of tea, I think, and maybe do a crossword. My life is such an exciting rollercoaster. I just don't know how I cope... hahaha.
Hope all are well and safe and enjoyed their first days at work/looking for work/avoiding work etc. xxx
Today I have been out of the house and down in Torquay/Totnes looking round old people's homes with my mum, aunt and uncle for my Grandma. It was sad, thinking about the fact that she will have to leave her house of 40 years, and a town she has lived in for even longer. But, there is no-one near her anymore to visit regularly, and there is no way she can look after herself. So this is the best option, and the home we decided on is really lovely. Kind of feels like a pensioner Thid Floor... with a huge common room, and slightly better food! And a cat called 'the boss'. Hmmn, anyway. That's what I did with my day. We also stopped for a very nice pub lunch which was very good. Yum yum.
Also on the note of food, I just munched my way through a packet of skittles and a snickers. Oh dear oh dear. Oh well...
Now I am off to make a cup of tea, I think, and maybe do a crossword. My life is such an exciting rollercoaster. I just don't know how I cope... hahaha.
Hope all are well and safe and enjoyed their first days at work/looking for work/avoiding work etc. xxx
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Back Home... for THREE MONTHS? Noooo... not possible
Well. Yesterday was a day of endings.
No more Thid Floor. No more Andy or the other finalists. No more college tea. No more hash browns. No more quick trips to the bar, the shop, Tees Lawn.
It is sad. But progressive... we are moving on to the next stage of our lives... and although it will be very different, in my optimistic view on life, I believe that it will be just as good, if not better than last year.
There is a lot to look forward to, and a lot to be thankful for. Thank you ALL for such a fantastic first experience of University life... it has truly been the best year of my life, and it's down to you guys! Thank you, thank you!
I'm gonna sign off now, but I will no doubt be blogging regularly...
So see you soon! Love you all, stay safe... xxx
No more Thid Floor. No more Andy or the other finalists. No more college tea. No more hash browns. No more quick trips to the bar, the shop, Tees Lawn.
It is sad. But progressive... we are moving on to the next stage of our lives... and although it will be very different, in my optimistic view on life, I believe that it will be just as good, if not better than last year.
There is a lot to look forward to, and a lot to be thankful for. Thank you ALL for such a fantastic first experience of University life... it has truly been the best year of my life, and it's down to you guys! Thank you, thank you!
I'm gonna sign off now, but I will no doubt be blogging regularly...
So see you soon! Love you all, stay safe... xxx
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
Friday, June 02, 2006
Summertime... and the living is easy
Sun is shining. Weather is sweet.
Feeling hot, hot, hot.
Sunshine through my window.
I love this weather.
I love no exams.
I love girly nights... chocolate fondue, alcohol, music, films, laughter, singing, frisbee and boppit. Does it get any better? Yes... there was pizza too!
xxx
Feeling hot, hot, hot.
Sunshine through my window.
I love this weather.
I love no exams.
I love girly nights... chocolate fondue, alcohol, music, films, laughter, singing, frisbee and boppit. Does it get any better? Yes... there was pizza too!
xxx
Thursday, June 01, 2006
Grrrr
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
ARGH! Arrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Grrr.
ARGH! Arrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Grrr.
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Exams are over! (Until August, at least...)
Well... there we go... as far as exams are concerned, I am done, done, done! And I couldn't be happier. The exam season ended at 10.30 today, following my Psych2 exam, which went okay as well, I think... a nice end to a stressful time. Now I look forward to fun, sun, dancing, drinking, friends, barbeques and lots of sleeping. I might read a book or two as well. Luxury.
There is nothing like it... I have nothing to do for the next FOUR MONTHS. I suppose I'd better get a job, but for now I am just going to love life. Yay!
I am in a very positive mood today. Good luck everyone who still has exams... don't worry, you too can soon join me on the other side!
Love etc xxx
There is nothing like it... I have nothing to do for the next FOUR MONTHS. I suppose I'd better get a job, but for now I am just going to love life. Yay!
I am in a very positive mood today. Good luck everyone who still has exams... don't worry, you too can soon join me on the other side!
Love etc xxx
Monday, May 22, 2006
Positivity
It's Monday. It's raining. It's 09:22, and I've overslept. I have lots of revision to do for my exam. My foot hurts, and a bad song just came on i-tunes. Despite all this, I am feeling in a rather positive mood at the moment. I don't know why, and I don't think I should question. Just be content with my contentment. It's nice, and I can't wait for exams to finish for everyone so we can get to having fun, fun, fun. It will be great.
There's a lot to look forward to in life.
So... eyes front, head straight, and carry on your way.
xxx
There's a lot to look forward to in life.
So... eyes front, head straight, and carry on your way.
xxx
Saturday, May 20, 2006
Odd Mood, sorry folks!
Mmmmn... pizza.
Zzzzzzz... revision.
Grrrrrr... rain.
Woooo... next Wednesday.
Hahaha... just because.
There. Life. Living it.
xxx
Zzzzzzz... revision.
Grrrrrr... rain.
Woooo... next Wednesday.
Hahaha... just because.
There. Life. Living it.
xxx
Friday, May 19, 2006
One more to go!
Well I've done four exams now... three went ok, one, not so good... but let's not dwell on it! Now I only have one more to do, and that's not 'till next Wednesday, so yay!
Am thoroughly looking forward to spending my time asleep, having fun, being with friends and doing nothing! It will be brilliant.
Good luck to you all who still have exams, and remember...
I don't know, stuff.
Bye xxx
Am thoroughly looking forward to spending my time asleep, having fun, being with friends and doing nothing! It will be brilliant.
Good luck to you all who still have exams, and remember...
I don't know, stuff.
Bye xxx
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Hooray!
Today I have done both an English exam, and an Anthropology exam... both of which I was STRESSED about
So... YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!
I'm a happy bunny now... but SO not in the mood for more revision. But revise we must,
Bye bye poppets xxx
So... YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!
I'm a happy bunny now... but SO not in the mood for more revision. But revise we must,
Bye bye poppets xxx
Thursday, May 04, 2006
Revision? No. Learning for the first time? Oh yeah... with bells on!
Everybody gape in awe... for the revision process has FINALLY begun! Hurrah! Hurrah!
Also, I haven't drunk anything alcoholic since Sunday... Hurrah! Hurrah!
Urm. Nothing else to report... my life is so damn uneventful... I ought to go out and make things happen! But, I'm too tired, and I have a 9am lecture that I plant to attend tomorrow, so I'll be signing off now... love ya! xxx
Also, I haven't drunk anything alcoholic since Sunday... Hurrah! Hurrah!
Urm. Nothing else to report... my life is so damn uneventful... I ought to go out and make things happen! But, I'm too tired, and I have a 9am lecture that I plant to attend tomorrow, so I'll be signing off now... love ya! xxx
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
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