Eggs

Today an old couple were shopping in Iceland, and they obviously wanted some eggs. In Iceland the free range eggs are on the top shelf, which is quite high, and despite his best efforts the old gentleman could not reach them. No one helped them, and they did not settle for Iceland's 12 pack of battery chicken general horribleness. Therefore, they left without eggs.

For some reason this brought tears to my eyes. That's the kind of person I am. I don't know what this says, but there you have it.

Sometimes...

Sometimes things are simpler than they seem. Sometimes they are not.
Sometimes people mean the things they say. Sometimes they do not.
Sometimes people said the things you hear they did. Sometimes they did not.
Sometimes it will all be fine. Sometimes it will not.
Sometimes you can see the negative and never the positive. Sometimes the niggling optimism of a positive view can no longer be ignored.
Sometimes its better to forget what you don't understand, and believe what you hope to be true.
Sometimes life gets too hard to pretend anymore that it is fine. But that is when we must turn to one another, to someone... and they will tell us that life is like that. Sometimes.

Sometimes all we can do is take a step back, a deep breath and a fresh perspective. Sometimes this will help, sometimes it wont.

Sometimes we must endeavour to be a little more aware of the consequences that our actions have. Sometimes we must act without thought. But only sometimes.

Sometimes we must do... instead of promising yourself that you will do it sometime...

Sometimes you must trust what you cannot prove, cannot see and cannot be reassured upon. You must have a blind faith in some things. Because otherwise what and who can you trust?

Sometimes it seems easier to let it all get to you, to give in and to break.

No one ever said the road was easy though. Sometimes its the hard times that teach us the most.

Sometimes.

Procrastination

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go.
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
.It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

5 points if you can name where it's from...

"It was icy as hell and I damn near fell down. I don't even know what I was running for- I guess I just felt like it. After I got across the road, I felt like I was sort of disappearing. It was that kind of a crazy afternoon, terrifically cold, and no sun out or anything, and you felt like you were disappearing every time you crossed a road."

I don't know why, except that I kind of like it...

So tired

That I can't really work out which day it is. I have a billion things to do, but not one iota of the energy to do them...

On the otherhand we do have a lovely, clean house for 6 for next year... which will be my last year in Durham which terrifies and upsets me more than it probably should. I am just not ready for reality!

x

Tidy Room

I am here, on my bed, gazing at the marvel that is a clean room. Freshly hoovered, cleared, sorted and generally dealt with. It's a wonderful sight, and a brilliant feeling. This said... it took me all of 40 minutes to do. I wish the arrangement of self could be so speedily completed. I'm in a very strange mood tonight... and cannot decide whether life and thoughts etc are very complex, or really very simple. I can't decide whether I'm feeling content, anxious, excited, nostalgic or what... I just don't know. I'm not despairing, I'm in a pretty good mood. But equally, I confuse myself! I would like to be able to order my mind in the way that I did my room... to hoover up the dust, throw out the rubbish and arrange the various scraps of paper, on which are scrawled all the pieces that make up my life. A quandry indeed, but on the other hand, I sometimes feel that I should stop questioning, accept it for what it is and 'carry on regardless'. I don't know if any of these sentences actually flow together, but if they don't it's just an example of the broken nature of a thought... of a life, really.

But anyway

enough of the rubbish! I'm starting to get cold (I'm on the bed, not in it), and my elbows are hurting (I'm leaning on them), and I am tired... so I shall say goodnight, with a question...

Are we complex... or are we actually very simple? Should we continue to question?

I guess one way that you could look at it is, if I never tidied my room, eventually I would a) not be able to open the door, b) not be able to find anything and c) very likely be plagued by insects and rodents. Not a pleasant thought...

Snow

Ok, so I know I was very drunk last night, and that maybe my reaction was partly due to that, but... as I was walking home at about 2am after a lovely night, my feet a little worse for wear, it began to snow. Really heavily. It had already snowed a little earlier in the night, and the roads, pavements, grass, houses, cars and trees were all covered. As was I, increasingly. Thanks to my alcohol coat, I didn't feel the cold, but I was touched by just how astoundingly beautiful snow is. At that time of night, the roads were empty, and the world was silent... all there was was me walking up the hill, and the snow, falling gently covering all the marks that we have left upon the world. Maybe this is why I think snow is so wonderful... it acts like a big blanket that hides all the ugliness that humanity has produced in order to 'get around, and get along'. Or maybe, it is just simply that it is beautiful... soft and slow. I don't know. I sound a little stupid now, I'm sure, but nevermind. It was a moment that caught me, and I guess I just wanted to reiterate what has already been put in other blogs... just remember to occasionally stop, and look around. Don't get too caught up in life, to forget the world in which you are living. That it has beauty beyond any which we could create. It is simple and it is wonderful, and it should be appreciated.

xxx

World's worst blog

So I thought I better update my blog, as I haven't in a little while. That said, I don't really think I have much to say. Thus, I apologise for the possible (and likely) ensuing, illegible ramble...

What have I been up to the last week or so? Not much? A lot... I don't know... went to Planet on Friday which was, as always, fun. Ummm... went to the quiz last night which was also fun, and we got 40/60.. not bad...

Wow, I am feeling really uninspired. Which is odd, because I don't really feel that way, I just can't put it down in (virtual) paper..

I'll go now. Sorry bout that!